I can't seem to get away from it...every where I turn...it is in my face...or at least it seems that way...it feels like everyone else's husband is coming home...on R&R....coming home on from their deployment early...and I can't help but think that Donnie left before theirs did...maybe I should stay off facebook for a while, and then I wouldn't know half of this information.
I try and remember that we are 63% done with this deployment (that is more than half way)! I remind myself of all of the things that I have to be thankful for during this deployment. I can make a pretty long list in my head. I know it could be so much worse. I tell myself that "it is what it is" and we will get through it! My own personal pep talk! It works most of the time. And it worked today when I gave it to myself!
And then this evening I realized it isn't just me that is feeling this way. It is my sweet little girl, who burst into tears when I reminded her that she has a long weekend coming up since they have no school on Monday. She said, it just reminds her of last year when Daddy came and ate lunch with her at the Veteran's Day lunch. So today at lunch her stomach hurt while she watched the other kids eating with their Daddy's or Grandpa's. And I of course, didn't think about going to eat with the kids for lunch (yes, I know I will probably get Mother of the Year). She said she didn't cry at school, she just held back her tears (breaks my heart). It is just another painful reminder of hard a deployment is...
